Friend, I am sorry for everything. iloveyousomuchandthereisnooneelseIwillever.Thanksforlovingmedespitebeingugly.Sorry.
Inscribed by shron at 3/23/2008 08:58:00 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Total Eclipse of the Heart
Thoughts filled in my mind. Here I am to share. =) Have a nice day!
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So much to say, so little time.
Been in the mood to cook. Who is willing to eat??
The weather is humid.
Ambrose is getting better, touch wood.
I hope she gets better.
I hope she doesn't change for the worse.
I hope she doesn't drift away.
I hope she'll stay.
Listening to Leona Lewis' "better in time".
I am thankful for church.
For at least I feel at peace there.
Everyone wants to succeed, but do they even want to live?
Why condemn others, when you're no better yourself?
Everyone is selfish. Some go overboard.
I miss the old days, trying to open the refrigerator.
Children are so happy and carefree, we grown-ups got to learn from them.
Don't pray asking for something, for you'll get what you deserve.
Apologize immediately before it's too late.
Say I Love You before it's too late.
Try making a person smile. It has healing powers.
Don't dismiss a person's actions as foolish. Try looking at the underlying concern instead.
Think your life sucks? Think again.
There are people out there who are a million times worse off than you.
Yet they're hopeful of a better tomorrow.
Learn to love what you have.
Given an opportunity, change for the better.
Save the Earth.
Polar Bears are dying.
If you have the will, go vegetarian.
It's not as bad as you think.
Animals got to live too you know?
But if you can't, please don't. Really.
Believe in yourself.
Hold on to something if you want it.
You'll get what you deserve.
Love is when two people help each other grow spiritually.
Love is the concern with no strings attached.
There's no luck in love. Some find the right one in their first love. Some don't. That's all.
It's better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all;
But don't get yourself pregnant in the process if you're not married.
Given a chance, repent for your mistakes.
If your friend doesn't learn from his/her mistakes, tell them.
Friendship is honesty plagued with concern.
If you only have one friend, it's more than enough.
It's better to have one good friend, than fifty other friends who don't care.
Don't demand respect. Respect others, and others will respect you.
Don't do to others, what others do unto you.
If someone hates you, love them.
If someone says something bad about you, say something good about them.
One less enemy equals to one more friend
Mothers are angels sent by God, because He can't be with you all the time.
Mothers think from their hearts.
If you think your mother is unreasonable, think again.
There are people craving for a family like yours.
Look at yourself through the eyes of someone else, and you'll know how blessed you are.
Love yourself, before you try to love others.
When someone is sad, you don't have to advice.
Listen to them. That will do.
Somedays are better than others; but ultimately, every day teaches you something new.
You don't have to be the first in everything.
You don't always have to succeed in everything.
Don't reproach yourself when things go wrong.
Learn from it, keep walking.
If you fail, try again.
If you fail a thousand times, try the 1001st.
Think Colonel Sanders, think determination.
It's ok if you can't bring a smile, but don't cause tears.
If each person were to do a good deed each day, the world may be rid of sins.
If you do a good deed for the sake of it, forget it.
For the kindest people in the world need not be famous.
Nobody needs to know how many good deeds you do.
But the spreading of a positive spirit is always encouraged.
It's ok if you're not creative, but please don't copy ideas.
Praise children, teach them to embrace life.
Let at least the next generation be a grateful one.
Don't harp on the weaknesses, build on the strengths.
Listen, Speak and See good.
The trendiest thing doesn't necessarily make you look good.
Don't need to want to look like others.
Because every single person looks beautiful just the way they are.
Have role models, but have your own views.
Be happy with yourself, unless you're a terrorist.
Laugh like a child; cry like a child.
Send a handwritten card with the corniest lines to your friend, family, or loved one.
Sing out loud if you want to.
Smile at a stranger.
If you almost stepped on a snail, place it in a safer place.
Don't dwell on dark yesterdays, rejoice about joyful tomorrows.
If you're sad, tell a friend.
If you're happy, tell a friend.
But when your friend feels the same way, remember to show them double the concern.
Jump in a puddle of water.
Kiss that baby.
Give a high five to that kid.
Hug the toddler.
But remember, this does not just apply to children.
Do it with your friends too.
If today's not so good, don't worry.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Hug dogs, take a stroll with them.
Dogs afterall, are man's best friend.
Some people cause hurt to others.
Some hurt themselves.
But ultimately, think about how your actions affect others.
You self mutilate, your loved ones cry.
You hurt others, their loved ones cry.
Whats a life of making others cry?
Make them smile.
From plants, to animals, to humans and even God.
There is a reason to be happy, there is a reason to smile.
Every day when you wake up, tell yourself, "Today's going to be a good day!".
Sing your favourite song in the shower.
Compliment someone.
At the end of the day, relate the day's events to someone willing to listen.
Grab that chocolate if you want to.
Chase your dreams when you're ready.
And don't let anyone stop you.
But don't you ever forget your humble beginnings.
Remember, you don't have to succeed all the time.
You don't have to be the best in what you do.
Live your life to the fullest,
each day is a blessing, each day is new.
Love,Live,Laugh
ShronTheGreat
Inscribed by shron at 3/20/2008 08:20:00 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Dennis
Today marked one year since Dennis passed on. Feels like it was just yesterday, that I broke down upon the news; upon seeing him lying there in peace. Went to his urnspot with Nadia to pay respects today.
11 March 2007, 06:11pm. A moment I will never forget.
Finished work at 5, and walked down to the florist to get some flowers. When I reached the florist, I saw that it was closed. =/ So I walked down to Novena Square to look for a florist. Thoughts of Dennis filling up my mind all the way there. I found a florist there and decided to get sunflowers, since Ben said it's ok to get any flower.
Sunflowers remind me of Dennis, bright and cheerful. :)
After getting the flowers, I headed down to Yishun to meet Nadia, who was awfully early, but had fun in NTUC anyway. Buying Granola bites I think. =/
We then cabbed to Mandai Crematorium and met Faizal there, identifying the place with Faizal's helmet placed as identification, on the map. Don't ask. Long story. I think he was bored.
He took us up to the place. He was there the whole day, accompanying those from Wayang Warehouse and CEMTA: Dennis' Drama company and the school he taught at respectively. I asked him if he had memorised the place already, since he was there for long, and he said yes. So I asked him how many times he went to the spot, and he said once. =////
We then arrived at the urnspot. Seeing the man in the picture tore me to pieces, but I promised myself I won't cry. So I looked for space to slot in the 3 sunflowers. I then noticed a message left at his urnspot. Kneeling down to read it, I saw that it was from his family. It read, "Always sadly and dearly missed by Dad, Mum and Brother." Or something like that. I felt so proud at that point of time, for Dennis. That he had such a wonderful family, and I know, as strong as they are, they are heartbroken too. But the strength they've had and have is inspirational.
Realising the sunflowers were too big to put anywhere, I left it standing right in front of his urn spot. I then looked at the picture. Half of myself was not there, as Faizal and Nadia talked and asked me questions. All the thoughts went back to 14 months ago. When everything was a mess. When the rift caused, angered several of us. When times heated up. Taking a turn for the worse. I felt that it wasn't fair, what happened.
After 2 minutes, which seemed very long, I looked at Faizal and smiled widely, signalling that we could leave. I knew that any longer, I would let my emotions get the better of me. I wanted to be back to strong Shron, the Shron I used to be. After crying for a year... Death was just too much to bear. As much as people say that death makes a person stronger, I shall declare that it only makes me weaker.
We walked back down, talking about other religious customs when loved ones die. Indians, Muslims, Chinese, Buddhists. After we reached the ground level, we asked a cab driver there who was there for some rites too, if he could send us back to Yishun MRT. We then waved goodbye and left.
Sitting in the cab, memories flooded every corner of my mind. The jokes he cracked, his contagious laughter, Den' Den's "tantrums", the time we went to Dennis' house, the time Dennis told PH his email address and the way he emphasised the letter 'n'. Needless to say, Dennis Tan had impacted my life the moment he entered, teaching me to live again. Making me laugh at one of the worst periods in my life. And I'm glad now that everything I just said, I have told him. With him, I just felt the need to say thank you, to be grateful openly.
But it wasn't gratitude that made him hold a special place in my heart, it was friendship. Brotherly friendship. Friendship he wasn't afraid to share. The shoulder he wasn't afraid to lend. The laughters he never failed to create. Nadia was talking to me, but half my mind wasn't there, once again. That was when Tim called Nadia. And something happened. I found it so funny, after I alighted at Yishun to board a bus, I started sniggering to myself. It really was so funny, but I shan't mention it. In case he decides to spit ice on my face again.
But the laughter didn't last long. The bus journey seemed endless. Yet it brought back pleasant memories.
Dear Ben, as much as you keep thanking us for being great pals, visiting him and remembering him and his birthday, I want you to know that you've been a wonderful person. I don't know how your family and you are coping, but I can see you're staying strong for them. We also could never thank you enough for all the support you showed us in the past year. I'm sure Dennis is proud of having you as a brother. Reminds me of the stories he used to tell. One I'd remember was when the two of you were going home from school. And what you did. I shan't elaborate, but it involved snot. hahahaha... the story cracked us up. And the way he told it with his dramatic kungfu moves, impeccable.
Strange isn't it? When someone enters your life, for little less than a year. He makes you smile and teaches you lessons. And when his job is done, he leaves. I feel he's an angel, whom God sent to us, to straighten our lives out. At least mine was straightened out. After he was gone, God knew that the loss was killing me, and he sent me another rainbow. A rainbow I still thank God for, till today. The rainbow has since vanished, but I am thankful. Because the rainbow was a major pillar of support when I was crying through the nights wishing Dennis back.
1 man. He sparked many changes. He's made a difference in my life.
That 1 man, who's made things right, erased the frowns, always by my side.
I miss you Dennis. Wo hen xiang ni. I'll wait for the day I alight at my last train stop, to join you. And till then, I'll continue to practise what you taught me.
That very important lesson you have taught. To live.
In Loving Memory of a loving friend,
Dennis Tan
23/01/80- 11/03/2007
Rest in peace. You'll always hold that special place in my heart, Ah Boon.
Love,Live,Laugh
ShronTheGreat
Inscribed by shron at 3/11/2008 10:32:00 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
Teoh Yiling
I had a loooooooooooooooooooooong nice talk with Teoh last night. We're alike in many ways, and went through the same thing at the same time. And even now, we're still alike. Especially, when we don't know what to do after work, and in Teoh's case, even during work at times. So when we were about to hang up, we decided to come up with something to keep ourselves busy and not think too much.
We then decided to take the tune of a song, and write our own lyrics. Something like what the Muttons at Midnight do on Musical Tuesdays. But we're different. Cos we aren't radio stations. So if you were thinking of suing us, hah! Fat Hope!
=/ Pardon that.
Anyway, the theme for our first song? "Each other"
We're gonna take the tune from a song and write lyrics that revolve around each other. Thus, my song is about Teoh. Supposed to post on friendster as a comment for her. But the song is too long. So I shall post the entire song here instead.
Enjoy Teoh!
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Song Title: Teoh Yiling
Written by: Shron
Tune: Lollipop by Mika
Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJVMWtv9JZI&feature=related
Hey!
What’s the big idea?
Yo , Teoh!
I saw Teoh Yiling sitting in Great World City,
In the street right next to town,
I saw Teoh Yiling sitting in Great World City,
And she ain’t got no frown.
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
She’s about to sell a gown.
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
The rain won’t get her down!
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
Yiling loves baking cookies and cakes,
And you know, that she ain’t no fake.
She spreads joy across the town,
No, Teoh will never frown.
She’s got humour at the back of her hands,
With her, you can never be tense.
Make you laugh, can can can!
No, Teoh will never frown!
Yiling!
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
She’s about to sell a gown.
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
The rain won’t get her down!
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
She’s got beauty and a pretty face,
She’s got her handphone just in case,
When she sees that weird briefcase,
She will call the police down.
She dreamt of something made of jade,
Hokkien to English, can translate!
Independent, don’t need a maid,
No Teoh will never frown!
Yiling!
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
She’s about to sell a gown.
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
The rain won’t get her down!
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
Teacher Yiling teach very good,
My mummy also say she very good.
My Ah Ma say she very very good,
Cos Teacher Teoh never frown.
Yiling!
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
She’s about to sell a gown.
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
The rain won’t get her down!
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
Say Teoh, say Teoh,
No, Teoh will never frown.
Teoh can rap well in Hokkien,
My grandma’s Ta ta tai, also can.
Wait that song, scared Singapore ban,
But Teoh still never frown.
Waa-oh, waa-oh, waa-oh, Teoh Yiling!
Waa-oh, waa-oh, waa-oh, Teoh Yiling!
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
She’s about to sell a gown.
Teoh Yiling’s sitting at Great World City,
The rain won’t get her down.
(Waa-oh, waa-oh, waa-oh)
Teoh Yiling!
Love,Live,Laugh
ShronTheGreat
Inscribed by shron at 3/10/2008 02:29:00 PM
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Happy ending
I promise you won't see me again. You won't hear from me. Wish Granted.
I'll pray for your happiness.
Mika- Happy Ending
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]
I feel as if I'm wasted
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
Inscribed by shron at 3/06/2008 09:41:00 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Oh Brother.
Had a talk with Kor Kor last night. Been really long since I talked to him.
Felt like old times again, when the three of us used to have fun.
The joys of growing up.
And as usual, we had random nonsense and deep advice coming out of this darling brother's mouth.
When I needed to talk to someone, there was nobody to talk to.
Well, at least that was what I felt.
So when we had a long, unexpected, random talk, I valued every word he said. Everything he mentioned.
He told me not to worry if people go missing from your life at times.
He told me that it's wonderful to care and think about others. But if I was constantly nice to everyone, I'm the one who's going to suffer; if you know what I mean.
We talked about his colleagues.
My classmates.
My "neighbours" and what they did at Open House.
About Mr "Don't know la, Shron-Prawn" and his incessant grumblings and gossips about me to the rest of the guys and Jon.
It was fun while it lasted.
Till I realised that it was going to be midnight and I had to work the next morning.
Sometimes, we immerse ourselves in so much of good times, that we refuse to leave. But wouldn't life get boring with too much bliss?
Thank you Kor Kor, for your pearls of wisdom.
Let me sum this post up, with my brother's last few words before we ended our talk.
"You know, I read this somewhere. If you want to some everything up in three words, Life Goes On."
Goodnight.
Love,Live,Laugh
ShronTheGreat
I still consider you a friend. When will you come back? When will we ever talk again? Don't you miss the good old times? Why torment each other?
Inscribed by shron at 3/04/2008 08:07:00 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
Congratulations
Congratulations. You have won the silent war. I'm sorry. I don't have the habit of abandoning my loved ones or avoiding them. I miss the old you, but since you want to do it so much, go ahead. Why behave like the world has ended? Maybe it was wrong for me to want a friend. You have proven to me. That at times, "Friendship is subjective". If in near time, you continue your actions, I'll vanish from your world. I don't hate people, and I don't hate you. Let me know at least, if this is what you want.
Where's my rainbow?
Come back friend. Please.